There are days when I am sitting at my desk and I just want to close the laptop and never back to this again. This. Cybersecurity work can get overwhelming and it can happen really quick especially when you are new to the field. You are eager to learn, there are a dozen hundred new terms, tools, methodologies. On top of working with and learning from new people, keeping up with demands, and keeping yourself organized because of the fear or messing up on a task, how can it not get overwhelming? All of these are normal feelings and motions that we all go thru and if someone says different then they either have it pretty easy or they haven’t had to deal with something huge.

I admit that this opinion may be biased. Of course I am basing off of my own experiences, my own investigations, incidents and events. Not everyone feels the same way and I don’t expect them too.
When the weight of the (cyber) world is on your shoulders on top of all your personal stuff, what is it that makes me want to keep going? Someone asked me once “When was the last time you felt excited to login to work in the morning?” and I replied without hesitation, “Everyday I login I am excited for my job. It is not always easy, it is not always manageable, hell, there are not enough hours in a day to get everything done but I always feel excited for what I do because of where i’ve been and the mission at hand.

But what keeps me going? Its the fact that I earned my way to be on this team, to be in this field and that I can take it whereever I want to go with it. Also because I know ther are others working just as hard as me, maybe even harder…but I don’t care about that. I have to work hard for me. Not for anyone else. My personal why’s keep me going way more than the dollar amount or job perks I MIGHT receive. I want to be someone that, when others that I have worked with in this field mention me, they say…”He is a hard-worker, he knew what it took to get the job done…” Maybe it will get there and maybe it won’t.